He thinks beating the shit out of me makes me a better person. She thinks shooting me with insults makes me a better person. He thinks bruising me makes me a better person. She thinks making me bleed makes me a better person.
Well I hate both of them to the bottom of my heart. As days pass me by I hate them even more. Why must they treat me like an animal? I wanna runaway and forget bout this life I thought I once knew. I wanna go to a place where it is just me myself and I. Yet this always comes in a mystical form of fantasy. Why?
God let me down. He ignored me when I called out for him. He turned away. Why? I thought he loves all of his creations. But me? Was I ever his in the first place? Even Lucifer was his initially. Well then what bout me? Why must he do this to me? Why God? WHY!!!
Happiness is gone. Smiles are faked. Conscience is pretense. There is no longer truth in their words. Especially in my mother's words. That fucking two-faced whore. I hate her so fucking much. Why must she hurt me emotionally? If that isn't enough, she needs to annoy Dad till he would whack the snot out of me!!! I FUCKING HATE BOTH OF YOU!!!
I wanna drown myself in my own sorrow. Thanks to them there is no more tomorrow. I wanna bleed to death. I wanna jump down a cliff. I can't take all of this anymore...
Please don't let me fall asleep. Violent thoughts torture my dreams. I see you wilt uglily and soon enough you fucking disappear. I see you screaming in pain. I see your face scarred in dismay. I see you regretting all that you have done. When I hold your heart in my hand, that is when you know I am God. So kiss the ring, mother fucker. It is my time, my time to shine...
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Hey 1st of all your anger is personified by the animated use of the word fuck to describe your feelings.Secondly god is the kinda guy who loves testing you to see if you can stick up to his challenges.You cant ask a teacher for the answer sheets to your exams. So why bother ? thirdly, i've concluded based on what you have disclosed that your parents are psychologically deranged.And by the powers vested on you as a human being, you have every right to live life the way you want s long as you dont harm others.Should you be harmed like you are now, there is no WRONG or FEAR in searching for solace or protection from legalised authorities such as the cops.
With that said, should your faggot father lay his hands on you, you ought to put up a display of self defense.Being a female specie practically i dont think you can endure the amount of pain you're being inflicted upon anymore.Therefore you ought to defend yourself.Not that i'm pressing you to act against your parents or anything.I aint got no beef with them
But the point is i hate every human who hurts every other human emotionally , physically and mentally, PURPOSELY.Right now you're in a situation where you're not able to think well and derive to a solution.But from my expert experiences, i think you have to resort to some form of legalised protection to keep yourself safe from dying at the hands of a deranged dad.
THere's only soo much everyone around you can do for you.But you ought to know how much those pain inflicted upon you by your parents have affected you emotionally.Therefore in order to avoid feeling those pain again like you concurrently feel without fail, you have to take ACTIONS.Dont put it off lightly,like you have done always because remember people always change and they will always treat you the way they want to treat you if you allow them to.
I hope you know you're not deceiving yourself by taking protection for yourself.Afterall you have alot of loved ones out there whom you should live for, therefore dont risk the chance of losing your lives at the hands of 2 deranged parents who treat you like a punching bag and hit you as and when they please.
Take Actions, Be tough, And Live Life Passionately! Period!
Correction to error in paragraph 4
remember people "RARELY" change and they will
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