Reflections.

I looked down beloew despite the warnings not to. I saw. The love I had for him fell from the Heavens and crashed to the ground. I saw the fragments of my broken tiny heart. Each of those bloody pieces had memories stuck in them. I saw you smiling. I saw you laughing. I saw you being happy. I saw you caring. I saw you helping. I saw you loving. I saw you...

Soon enough, it began to rain. The sharp droplets tried to wash the jagged bloodied pieces of my heart. Instead, it cracked them even further. And again, I saw....

I saw you crying. I saw you cursing. I saw you lying. I saw you bleeding. I saw you disappointed. I saw you fading....

I miss you. I miss the way things used to be. It is so different now. Colors fade to grey. All becoming to tunnel vision. Obesssion gets in the way in loving someone. I regret. I repent. I am sorry for the things I have done. I want you back the way you used to be. Life abandons me the way Happiness had done long ago...

I have no joy. I feel nothing. Everything seems to be in a distant, especially you. I had went to the end of the line trying to make you happy. But, I guess I fail. Just like the way I fail to breathe...

So many lies swirled around me. I can breathe today. I hope, at least...

I do not know what to do anymore. I cannot trust you. I cannot believe in anyone else. I am my own nemesis against my own soul. I hate what I have done. I just wish the clock can turn around so that I can make my amendments....

I am sorry to have let you down. But, it is not like that now...It is time I will never let you go....