I give up. I really give up.
I want your heart to sing with pain. I want you to die in front of me. I want to you to squeal in horror as you feel I drain your life out of you. I want to torture you. I want to abuse you.
I want to give up on myself too. But I can't. I am so alone. I am so afraid. No one is there for me ): I need someone to stop me. I am getting out of control .
I wasn't so fucked up like this. Why why why???
I HATE YOU!
I WILL ALWAYS HATE YOU!!!
GO AND ROT IN HELL YOU SONS OF BITCHES!!!
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4 comments:
Perhaps Bash.I.Rah was addicted to tha dark side
Somewhere inside her childhood she must
have missed her heart die
And even though we both came from the same nation
The money and our lifestyles made us all change station
How could it be through the misery that came to pass
The hard times make a true friend afraid to ask
But you could run to me when you need me, I'll never leave
I just needed someone to believe in, as you can see
It's a small thing through and true
And coming new, she'd do the same thing if she could
Bringing the cease to the peace that was on my block
It never stop, when i ask her will she change
she tells me yeah, but it's clear she'll always be the same
So take, these broken wings
You need my hands to come and heal you once again
So you can fly away......
Please Lord forgive Banshee for her life of sin
My attitude got me walking solo
Riding out alone in the dark as if she didnt know
Watching the whole world move in slow-mo
Who can she trust in this cold world
But she ain't trippin I'm a playa I ain't sweating her
Now who's to say if she was right or wrong?
To let her live her life as an outcast all along
Remain strong in this planet full of playa haters
And in the end drinking bacardi made all her enemies envy her
So cold when she flows she's able to eiminate easily
Fall to her knees, she pleads for her right to breathe
while beggin me to keep the peace
Well she can see close into achieve
In times of danger don't freeze time to be a geek
Follow my lead I supply everything you need
she needs to be bold to stop to bleed
she holds on through and true, i'd be there to watch her
Gettin raw till the day I see her casket
Buried as a lass while the whole world remembers her
-Shameer G.D. :P
Aye Aye Aye,
so much misery in a poor poor young heart ,
Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.
Yo banshee i know u for almost 1 and a half year i think :) dont you dare say u're alone , u have an army of an empire backed up behind you under my command.
You must be strong now. You must never give up. And when people make you cry and you are afraid of the dark, and the fright.People will always beat you to a bloody pulp when you're weak
Be strong , step up to the plate, and Know No FEAR
don't forget the light is always there!
-Shameer G.D.
I didnt know ur dad was sooo unreasonable :P, i always thought of u as a whiner.Miscued :P
I kinda realise how you feel right now as if,
your mind tells you to give up, but your heart won't let you to.
Give up all bad qualities in you, banish the ego, the drugs, the alcohol, the ciggies,the self-cutting and develop the spirit of a beautiful hustler. You will then experience Bliss against all odds.
Dont GiVe UP iF U StIll WaNna TrY
DonT WIpE YOUR TeARS IF YOU StiLL WANna Cry
DON'T SETTLE FOR AN ANSWER IF YOU StiLL wanna KnOW
AnD DONT SAY YOU DONT LIKE Him IF YOU WOn't LeT Him gO
DONt GIVE UP hope on urself
when u know you dont have tO
NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP
U always have ma back till the day one of us has to use the casket!
-Shameer G.D.
i dunno i really feel bad chiding u with all those words :),
But at that time u really disappointed me :), all i ever wanted banshee to do or be was to allow herself to inflict no pain on herself.
She's just ignoring everything i say or do , and she just keeps hurting herself :( :( .
That's not the way things were supposed to be , i think u know that you dont wanna do all those bad stuff to urself like u're doing now.
U're trying to vent ur anger on them by inflicting the pain on urself.
That actually resolves nothing but makes u feel miserable which already u must have been feeling right now.
You shall not feel any miserable, dont hurt urself.
You parents suck that's a known fact, u cant do no shit abt that right now, but u could try to submit to watever bullcrap they throw at you.
They are simply overreacting as being overprotective over you.
They wanna raise u up as a typical well maybe a nice girl lol, by making u conservative and makin u an introvert.They want u to keep ur clothes neatly,and stuff.Well maybe with that said, they are being abusive as well.
But fact of the matter is, whatever they do or say, literally
has or should have no effect on you.
I mean cmon , it's not like u're gonna live with them all ur life, and it's not like they are gonna decide who ur husband should be or where u should buy ur house and stuff.
All the pain and misery that u go throw right now is temporary and not permanent.
All u gotta to do right now is accept it and live with it because there's really nothing u cant do abt it.
But what made me really mad last time was not even the fact that u hardly know anything about me, but the fact that you heard urself despite my daily rants :( .
LOL u cant seem to fucking understtand that u hurting urself is lol like me pokin my own eye :P .
I cant bear seeing bashirah tormenting herself, it's terrible,that's why i avoided u :(.
Cmon Bashirah, u deserve great things in life and u deserve a wonderful life , and u wont be able to get them all, if u go on hurting urself. Dont hurt urself in any ways at all, dont hurt urself , i know u still would despite what i wrote here .
Hmm maybe someday when u look back at what i wrote here , maybe u would understand tat u really would have had a better life if not for those cuttings,ciggies,alcohols,drugs,staples and shit.
Those fuckin shit cost u $$$ and lots of it and they do u know good, and u know it, dont lie to ur conscious like u do to me claiming it feels good.
I cant just sit here miles away
and watch my dear bashirah tearing herself apart only to look like the fleshless skeleton in ur profile picture.
I know u dont wanna do it either,
I know u dont wanna hurt urself
I know u hate smoking,alcoholing,drugging, cutting urself
THEN u should never do anything u hate, despite how much the pigs around you torture u and force u into that situation.
The pigs around u who hate you will never know u as well as i do .
I've worn your shoes before and i could relate to how ur heart and mind feels, but reality check u cant scotchtape their tongues.
Every ass will run their tongues out without controlling them, u ought to hear what u really wanna hear and ignore the rest.
All in all, just want bashriah to stop cuttin herself.and involving herself with vices.
I know she deserves everlasting happiness and all her dreams of becoming a doctor or a writer has to be achieved.She cant hit 6 ft under without accomplishing all her goals.Neither would i allow her to go 6 ft under without her achieveing her goals.Despite what every fucka says , u ought to prove them wrong by using power to overthrow them.
Work on ur goals and just ignore what these pigs say, cuz they dont really know the real bashirah within that white skin, that puffy eyes and that torn lips like i do.
NEVER HURT URSELF UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES AND IGNORE NEGATIVITY , NEVER BECOME THE EPITOME OF NEGATIVITY ,INFACT TURN THE NEGATIVE PPL TO THINK POSITIVELY AND LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE, IF THEY REMAIN STUBBORN, U CAN ALWAYS CHOOSE TO MOVE ON WITH LIFE AND LIVE LIFE UR WAY , NEVER HURT URSELF ,EACH BIT OF BLOOD THAT OOZES OFF UR BODY IS LIKE EACH DROP OF UR LIFE IS BEING DRAINED OUT.
U DONT DESERVE TO DIE , U HAVE TO LIVE, AND NOT JUST LIVE NORMALLY BUT HAPPILY AND LIVE SO HAPPY AS IF THERE ISNT A TOMORROW
U deserve the Best, Cuz You're Simply The Best!!
-Shameer G.D.
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