Take Me Away.

He thinks beating the shit out of me makes me a better person. She thinks shooting me with insults makes me a better person. He thinks bruising me makes me a better person. She thinks making me bleed makes me a better person.

Well I hate both of them to the bottom of my heart. As days pass me by I hate them even more. Why must they treat me like an animal? I wanna runaway and forget bout this life I thought I once knew. I wanna go to a place where it is just me myself and I. Yet this always comes in a mystical form of fantasy. Why?

God let me down. He ignored me when I called out for him. He turned away. Why? I thought he loves all of his creations. But me? Was I ever his in the first place? Even Lucifer was his initially. Well then what bout me? Why must he do this to me? Why God? WHY!!!

Happiness is gone. Smiles are faked. Conscience is pretense. There is no longer truth in their words. Especially in my mother's words. That fucking two-faced whore. I hate her so fucking much. Why must she hurt me emotionally? If that isn't enough, she needs to annoy Dad till he would whack the snot out of me!!! I FUCKING HATE BOTH OF YOU!!!

I wanna drown myself in my own sorrow. Thanks to them there is no more tomorrow. I wanna bleed to death. I wanna jump down a cliff. I can't take all of this anymore...

Please don't let me fall asleep. Violent thoughts torture my dreams. I see you wilt uglily and soon enough you fucking disappear. I see you screaming in pain. I see your face scarred in dismay. I see you regretting all that you have done. When I hold your heart in my hand, that is when you know I am God. So kiss the ring, mother fucker. It is my time, my time to shine...