Bleeding Love.

My eyes are stinging me. I can barely open them. They hurt so much. I wipe my tears off of my cheek, thinking they were just salty water. Little did I know I have began to shed tears of blood...

My soul is in immense pain. I need to get out of this. I keep bleeding everywhere, inside out. This is bad. Really bad. I got no idea how awful things have gotten. I hate everything around me. I cannot trust anyone here at home. They are all putting on masks and behind those masks are God's most damned creations ever known to mankind...

I am so afraid of my baby leaving me. I love him so much and I would never hold it against him if he were to walk away from me as he got every right to. I have caused to much harm to him. I am just a loser. I have to hurt so many people. Why?

I just hope things get better. This is an illness and I need to get out of this...Fast...