Black Rose Dying.

Have I made a decision to only allow myself be engulfed in utter misery?

My world with you has caved in. This time for real. I have lost everything. I guess it should be time that I admit my defeat. I do not know where is the safest place anymore. I do not know what Happiness feel like anymore. I do not know who has got my back. I do not know who to trust anymore. I just lost a part of me...

I got no idea how I am suppose to feel. What have I done again? I am so messed up right now. I need a way out of this. The disease has infected my brain. I cannot remove it out of my bloodstream. It has crept through me faster than I thought. I am so sick. I am tired. I have withered...

I got my hopes up all the time only to know they will be crushed one by one right before my very eyes. My heart was held high only to know you were going to break it into a million pieces. I was overprotected in your arms only to know that you were intending to crush my bones...

What would it take for me to realize that I can breathe?

P.S: I AM CONFUSED BY YOU. YOU GOT ME GOOD...