Thursday, January 15, 2009

Tattooed.

I think you should know that you will always be in my mind. Oh, how I wish you can have one last breath to see this...

I will not miss you for you are not gone for even a whole minute. I will not cry over this for you are much happier by now. All I gotta do is shut my eyes. And I see you. I see all of you, baby. I see you being healthy right before me. I see you, baby. I can. As painful as this sounds, I have comfort in knowing that you are in a better place by now. Without me. Without me taking care of you. Without me feeding you. Without me protecting you. Without me bothering about you. Without me playing with you. Without me looking out for you...

I just wanna take back those misspent days. And I wish I can take back those painful words I have said. I wanna hold you again. I thought I can end your pain. All I need is I one last minute, to look at you in the eye and say just how much I love you and that having you is the best thing that has ever occurred to me...

I am sorry for all the pain I caused. I am sorry the apology cannot be better. I am sorry that I did not do my part in healing you. I am sorry...

Just know that I will always love you. And no matter where you are, you will always be a part of me. My heart belongs to you, my little darling. Please take care of yourself, now that I can no longer be there with you...

P.S: IF THERE WAS A GOD, WHY HAS HE LET YOU DIE?

Left Behind.

I will never keep your memory vague...

It kills me to place you in that casket, lowering it to the ground. I am certain by now you are in a better place where you can no longer feel pain, my little darling. I wish I can stay by your side, throughout the cold night to keep you company, like how you would do for me...

Like I have said, you will never be missed for you are always right here, safely kept in my heart. I am sorry that I left you by your side down there. Just remember that I will always love you...

P.S: YOU ARE NEVER ALONE.