Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Let The Flames.

I wanna gather each and every one of you in the circle I have made with salt. I will place you within the star so I can achieve my star. I shall pour kerosene all over. Yes. I lie. I am not supposed to do this. And you cannot budge cus you are standing on quick sand. Soon enough, you are sinking. I can see that you are drowning in my pain as you are screaming for Mercy. Nice try. But, not good enough. I light the match and threw it at your face that has been soaked in kerosene...

I cannot trust anyone anymore. Especially the one I once thought could protect me from the demons that exist in my reality. She was everything to me. She was one of the most important people in my life that I really cared about. She was what I thought perfection was all about...Until I got slapped in the face with my eyes closed...

She is just like all the rest. She is no better than the demons in my sleep. She is an animal. She embraces brutality and relishes on hurting me. She is a motherfucker and I truly hate her now...

I realize that I have myself to depend on, besides having the love of my life by my side always. I will show them all what he means to me. I will fight to the end. I will defend. I will prove them all with the scars on me that he is my one and only guardian angel and he is the one that I love with all my heart...

Damn. I love him more than I love them. Much, much more. He is so different than them and that is why I love him. I know I sound ungrateful and what-not. But, I guess that is life. I cannot get the best of both worlds. I have to win some, lose some...

Way Back Into Love.

If only I knew I was going to be this happy, I would have ran into your arms much more sooner...

I cannot find anybody out here to understand what I am talking about. Nobody can feel the way I feel. But, I do not care. What matters most is how you can speak to my heart. No one is like you, baby. They cannot do me better than you. I am willing to throw everything and everyone out of my life so that I can have more space to build new memories with you, honey...

You whisper in my ear so that only I can hear what you have to say to me. We do not need anyone to hold us down. Give me time, darling. I promise I will take you to a place where no one knows our name. And we will build our lives there. We do not need anyone around us as they only hold us down...