We Like You Better When You Are Dead.

When will it all end?

You are the cruelest woman I have ever met. You tell lies day and night. You believe in them. You make them be a part of you. You are the most disgusting person I have ever come across. You make the world turn their backs against me with your pretense and mask that you put on till it becomes your skin. Your face is black just like your heart. Your heart is make of my misery and ashes of my once-found joy. You are indeed God's damnest creation from Hell. You do not deserve to live on this earth. Your presence lingers death of the roses in my room. Your aura is jet-black, just like your ugly breath that reeks endless withering of essence of Life. Your soul can never be pure for you have sinned more than Lucifer himself. Your curses poisons the air, just like your breath. You are nothing to me. You mean absolutely nothing, you stupid loathesome mother-fucking whore!

I tried my hardest just to please you. I did everything that you have ever wanted. I gave you everything you ever dreamed of. I am better than your other children. You know this very well, yet you take advantage of me...

You kill me day and night with your insanity of not being able to filter right and wrong. You have no self-control of your emotions and simply dump all of them on me. Because I am helpless and defenceless in your eyes. I am nothing to you. I can never understand just what the fuck do you really want from me nor will I ever want to. I am sick and tired of living here. With you...

Just because you lead a screwed up life, does not fucking give you any fucking right to mess mine up..

I will never let you win. 1 year has passed. Soon it will be gone. Just like the past 18 years. I will never let you get the best of me. I will never let you break me. I will never let you watch me bleed. I will never fall. I will never shed a tear for you. I will never care for you anymore. I will never love you anymore. I will cut off all ties with you. Give me 3 more years. Just 3 more mother-fucking years, you wretched woman. Yes, that is the only amount of time I need left now. You will be surprised just how fast time flies. It is just like a blink of an eye. Because that will be the day I will actually give you a taste of hell, you slut. I will never be there on your death bed. Perhaps I will, just to piss on your sickening wrinkled face...

You can never see what beauty there is inside of me. You refuse to. Just like you refuse to see just what a good daughter I am. Just what a talented girl I really am. Just how successful I can be in the future. Just how lovely it is to have me as your daughter. I had never done you wrong despite all the hell you gave me for the past 18 years. I can never forgive you for all that you have done to me. I can never. My heart is too sore to even look at you. I rather die than hearing your loathesome voice. I cannot stand being with you for another second. You belong to where the dirt, faeces, snakes and maggots reside. Your grave...

You are one twisted dick-head woman who ensures that I bleed to sleep as my lullaby. You make sure that everyone hates me here. You make everyone crazy and I end up with the tonnes of scars and bruises on my scrawny little body. Just what did I ever do to make you so mad?

P.S: I WILL MAKE YOU REGRET!!!

There & Back Again.

It has been a while and it will be a while too...

I do not know how much longer I can take. Walls keep crumbling down. Heart keeps getting broken. World keeps crashing down. Everything is always and forever a mess. Whenever I try to fix something, it gets worst. And when I let things be, it gets worst as well. What is the meaning of this?

I doubt I know what I once knew. I cannot even trust myself. I let myself down each time by bleeding on the floor or crying till blood stains my cheeks. It gets worst day and night. I wanna get out of this place. Fast. I have had enough of everyone's bullshit. I can feel my wings forming. Soon, I can take flight...

P.S: WHEN CAN YOU JUST FUCKING DIE AND ROT IN HELL, BITCH?!!!