Anywhere.

I dreamt of a place where I could forget how to cry. I was flying sky-high. I remembered how happiness tasted like. There was nothing I fear. I saw you there too. You were with me. Holding my hand in yours, you stood by my side. I prayed so very hard for the moment not to disappear, but that was Life for me. I never get whatever i want....

I don't know why she must treat me like this. I know I can be a handful at times but I'm sure I don't deserve shit like this from her to this large extent. It's really ridiculous. I don't feel safe at home. So much emotional insecurities...So much bullshit...

God typing crap here feels like I'm talking to my conscience who has long abandoned me. Why?

Last Train Home.

Not even a day had went by and i missed him. When he leaves, he takes a part of me too. Maybe I need to wake up and realise that not everybody tastes fairy tale as perfect as Cinderella or Snow White. Now I know why perfection in fairy tales exist; they are tales. Tales that are never meant to go wrong. Tales that are suppose to tell you things that you wanna hear.

I wish day and night I could be with him. I had done all I could to save us. I did my best to stay alive but he drowned me. He left me here all on my own. He lied. He killed me. Two years have gone by and I thought I was gonna be fine. But hell no. I still longed for so long to hold him. Silly silly me...

There are always something different going on. How am I supposed to keep up with the pace? I feel so alone. It is as if I am abandoned here for a reason. But what the fuck is it?!!! How long does it takes for everyone to see I'm no longer breathing? I am tired of waiting in vain. Yes. I can wait. But I can't wait forever...