Whole Again.

I have metamorphosized into a beautiful young woman. I have a beating heart in me. I have the ability to breathe again...

I am all that I am today thanks to you, baby. You are truly god sent. I can be myself and only you can see that in me. You believe in me. This is one of the thousands of reasons as to why I love you with all my heart...

You bring out the best in me. I see myself the way you see me. You back me up everytime I was about to fall. You tighten your grip on me as you think I am going to slip. You went the extra mile just to capture my golden smile. You gave me wings and I began to fly, my Love...

I really do not give a fuck to what anyone has to say bout you and I when they do not know shit bout us. They love to play God and judge us. How disgusting!

All I know is you are one in a trillion and you are the most precious and special thing in my life. I have so much pride in owning you and being owned by you. Thank you for loving me, baby...

Supernatural.

There is no one like you even though there is a cliched saying of everybody is just the same...

You are the best thing in my life. I never knew that I was going to love you to this extent. But, I am. And I love this. You are just so perfect for me. Wow. You can take my breath away by just glimpse of beautiful you, baby...

I never felt this way before. Everytime you kiss me, you got me hypnotized. Everythim you hug me, you got me mesmerized. Everytime you stare into my eyes, you got me...

You are so wonderful and outstanding. I really do not know what I have done to earn you. You love me so much and I love you the way you are. I can spend a whole lifetime literally saying just how much we love each other. We are so high and we rock the world, baby!

Ever since we got together, nothing became impossible. I managed to do things I thought I could not do. I became so powerful and I became unstoppable. Thank you...

Thank you for everything that you have done for me, sweetheart. I love you so much. We will always be as one. Nobody can come between you and I. MWAH!!!

You Eclipsed By Me.

What would it take for you to see just how bloody stupid you look right now?

I have no idea what the fuck you are trying to prove nor achieve. You are so overtly pathetic and I fucking hate you so much. You got the guts to be tearful bout this when it had been you all along to burn yourself as you play this game of fire. You dumb bitch...

Which part of leaving me alone do you not get? Which part of fucking out of my face do you not understand? You gormless piece of shit. Sight of you disgusts me. You irksome human being. Are you even one in the first place?

Stop forcing things that you want down my fucking throat before I take them and stuff it up your ass. Hey, if you are not happy with me, tell it to my fucking face. Or you can shove it up your asshole. I am sure it is big enough for you to stuff a lifetime's worth of agony...

You are such a monster. I will always hate you. So you need not worry much. The only change that will happen is that I will continue to hate you more and more as days pass me by. You whore...

I will never let go of him. So you better live with it. I will always love him. So you better start a new phase. I will always be fighting for him. So you better dig your own grave...

Pieces That Made Eden.

Sometimes Life moves so fast till I tend to forget the best thing I have in life and that I am still alive. Times like these remind me to take a step back, or a few to admire the beauty of this masterpiece God has painted of you...

Nothing can be greater than the comfort of your embrace. Nothing can be compared to your love for me. Nothing can be better than being kissed by you. Nothing can be equivalent to warmth of your touch. Nothing can beat you, baby...

I just cannot be without you. I am far more than addicted to you. It is so evident that I have become obsessed with you. Maybe you have hypnotized me with that one kiss that everyone waits a lifetime for. And I got you. All for myself forever....

Whenever you cannot be near, I always think about the precious sweet moments that we have shared. I can never forget the littlest things that you have done for me. They are just oh-so cute and lovely. Just like you, my darling. I keep the tiny pieces of your beautiful yesterdays and I hold onto them till I get to see you again. And when I do, I will place them safely at the back of my mind. For I need to build more space in my head for new and sweeter memories with you. This will never end. It is just like a cycle and it is inevitable...

Fragments of our memories keep me from falling apart. They are one of the many reasons as to why I just cannot get you out of my head even for a split second. I am so hooked onto you. You are my drug. I love being intoxicated by you, baby....

There were the rainy days. But, I always know that before my pretty rainbow can appear, it needs to rain beforehand. I guess, this can reasonably explain why we need bitter times to isolate and clearly distinguish our precious moments that we hold on to dearly...

Just know that I will always love you till the end of time. I am made for you and you are made for me. As cliched as it sounds, I need you and I want you always no matter what. Nothing can lead me astray or tear me apart from you. You are my one and only. Mwah...

God Sent.

Life always has its own mysterious ways to fuck things up for you and I...

Yet no matter how sticky the situation I may be in, you are always around me. Backing me up, without a doubt. Nothing is greater than the comfort of your warm embrace everytime when I am afraid of things that I know or I feel filthy of my being...

The radiance that I can see upon your face tells me that you are more than a man. The brilliance that I can feel deep in my heart bout you reveals to me that you are more than a star. The existence of your being ensures me the fact that I know you are my guardian angel...

No matter what happens, I will fight and defend for you. Even if that means to add more scars on myself. I do not care what people have to say. They do not know a thing about you. Whatever I am today, I do not deserve the glory of owning them. I owe it all to you. Yes. Only you, my sweetest Love from above...

It is just utterly depressing that people cannot see the beauty that I can see in you. Then again, I will not be as special as I am today for you if that were to happen. For better or worst, I will love you with every beat of my heart. You are the only truth that I have ever known...

Do not only take my breath away; take me away as well from this Hell and to our secret. I will never let go of you. You are safely locked in my heart. I gave you my hand and you took it. From that moment, I began to live...

It is always such a wonder how you can make me smile genuinely again. How you can make me laugh over the silliest things. How you can move me and touch me till tears well up in my eyes for you are far too beautiful to be described by words...

You are the reason I believe in Love. You are the answer for my prayers. We do not need anyone else, but us. My dreams came true and it is because of you, my dear one. Nothing can shake me. Nothing can break me. I will give my all just to be with you. I will go to the end of the world to carve a smile on your lips, baby...

I love you...

I am sure the world is jealous of me right now for owning God's most precious gift. You are the only pride I have in owning. I care alot bout you. And I want to be with you for a whole lifetime. I will make sure that happens...

Laments To An Invinsible God.

Please give me all the strength to pull thru...

I really need all the might within myself to make it thru the fall. I am once again trapped in this place I dare not call Home. I have nobody to turn to. Literally. I have to face this one on my own. I do not know how things could have gone so wrong to this extreme extent...

I am staring at Fear in my own eyes as I look into the mirror. I am embracing Agony as I hold onto myself. I am engulfing Sorrow as I breathe...

I have no idea how to be strong. I have no idea how to make things better. All I can do is sit at the edge of my bed, waiting for the death of Today..

P.S: SOMEBODY PLEASE RESCUE ME. I AM FADING AWAY...

Penholder.

Life finally has a whole new meaning to it. Happiness found it way and caught me. Not by surprise, thankfully. It has been such a long while since it hid...

I dare to stand up and face the world. I am done healing. I can fly. I can run. I have broken free of me. I am alive. Still alive. But I cannot take glory for this. I would only show what he did, but I would never take the credit...

Now that I got my soul back into my body, I will take good care of it. Enough of living in the shadows. It is time to part the thick nylon curtains now. Let the sun in. The brightness is not as piercing afterall....

Faces.

So you think you are doing something worthwhile in your life?

I got no fucking idea who gave you the idea that you are holy and you are close to God. Deep down inside, I know He himself cannot wait to watch you rot in Hell. That is the only place you deserve to be.

You are so self-centered. You think everything that you do is right. You never apologize for your stupid mistakes. Your ego is way on top of your conscience. You keep adding fuel to the fire. You make nothing seems like an apocalypse. What the fuck is wrong with you?

I am so disgusted to be near you. You twisted wicked witch. You are so mother fucking ugly even without the facade and role you try to play. Tsk-tsk. I am way ahead of you, bitch.

Gawd. I try my hardest to love you. But trying to even like you is just impossible. And you made it like this. Stupid stupid stupid. What was God thinking when He created you? Perhaps a toy for the Devil to pounce on....

Circle of Life.

I stared at the girl in the mirror. She looked so ugly. I barely recognized her. Who was she?

I looked into her eyes. They were red. Blood shot red. They seemed as though they have been crying for centuries. I could see her cheekbones and literally no flesh could be tugged on her her petite face. She was so disgusting. I irked at the sight. I almost puked. Her mouth was torn. Cuts were all over her face. Perhaps due to abuse or self-mutilation. I was not sure myself....

I thought about her. I could not get her out of my mind. She lived in my dreams. She lived in my pain. My sorrow. My anger. My what nots...

I am trying so very hard to be strong. Yet, it just appears that being miserable seems hell lot easier than to be glad bout Life. I have to fight my own demons. The demons in my dreams come to Life constantly. When will they perish?

Absence either makes the heart grow fonder. That is what I hear. Yet, I think otherwise. It can make the tiny confused heart wither. Why not? It is just so hard to move on in Life without a whole heart. I pick the fragments of my shattered Happyness and hold onto it for the whole of eternity. Yet, for just one second I felt whole...

I miss the way I smile genuinely. I miss the way I laugh heartily. I miss the way I skip merily. I miss the way I jump joyfully. I miss me...

Tattooed.

I think you should know that you will always be in my heart. Oh, how I wish you can see this, my dear...

I will not miss you for you are not even gone for a minute. All I gotta do is close my eyes. And I see you. I see you being happy with me. I see you being healthy right before me. I see you, baby. I can. As painful as this sounds, I have comfort in knowing that you are in a better place by now. Without me. Without me taking care of you. Without me feeding you. Without me protecting you. Without me bothering about you. Without me playing with you. Without me looking out for you...

I just wanna take back those misspent days. And I wish I can take back those painful words I have said. I wanna hold you again. I thought I can end your pain. All I need is I one last minute, to look at you in the eye and say just how much I love you and that having you is the best thing that has ever occurred to me...

I am sorry for all the pain I caused. I am sorry the apology cannot be better, I am sorry that I did not do my part in healing you. I am sorry...

Just know that I will always love you. And no matter where you are, you will always be a part of me. My heart belongs to you, my little darling. Please take care of yourself, now that I can no longer be there with you...

P.S: IF THERE WAS A GOD, WHY HAS HE LET YOU DIE?