The Crimson.

People like you should be crucified. Then maybe, just maybe, you have an idea of what the fuck you are talking about...

Who are you to tell me what Happiness is like when you are the one drowning me in Misery? Who are you to tell me what Life is supposed to be like when you are the one killing me? Who are you to tell me what breathing is meant to be when you are the one suffocating me? Who are you to tell me what Love is when you are the one who forced me to see that I am full of Hate? Who are you to tell me what Freedom is all about when you are the one who confined me? Who are you to tell me about Respect when you belittle me continuously?

If you must know for being ignorant as always, Benjamin is the one I will love. The one I will care. The one I will cherish. The one I will bother. The one I will respect. The one I will be honest with. The one I will be loyal to. The one I will stick to till the end of time...

What is the matter with you? Are you so fucking retarded that you cannot a single thing that is going on? And you dare say that I am stupid. How ironic. Tsk-tsk. By the way, you gotta stop fucking laying hands on me, you dirty little soul frigger. You are old. All of you. And you are simply courting Death with me...

Yes. I may be little but I have a heart that is bigger than yours. So does the man I truly love. If you are so fucking blind to see that he is the true one for me, then I guess that is just too bad. You got fucking idea just what you are missing out. I do not know what the fuck you want from me. You are wasting time and effort trying to stuff your beliefs down my throat, bitches...

And yes. I am still under your fucking ruthless control. But, just you wait and mark these words of Hatred. I will never be present at your funeral. Even if I am, I will be pissing at your cold white face. Each and every one of you. I will only give my Pain back to your fucking lifeless face as you lie in that fucking big coffin for you. I will make sure you go to Hell even if that means it will be afterlife...

I am tired of being depressed for I have the man of my life with me this time round. That is why I am not gonna break down. That is why I am not gonna crack. That is why I will make sure I stay happy regardless of the shit I will be going through...

And if you got a problem with that, TAKE YOUR PAIN & SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASSHOLE!

Anything.

I stopped walking for a little while. I placed my hand at my chest. I was engulfed by shock and confusion. I did not find my heartbeat. I panicked. What was going on? Have I gone too near to the white light too soon? I closed my eyes. I saw you. I smiled. I remembered. I had given you my heart way before I met you, my dear...

I love you. I love you more than anything in this world. I love you more than the way those marine life loves the ocean. I love you more than the way the trees love the sun. I love you more than how a mother would love a child. I love you more than anyone else...

Need.

Ain't it funny how Life seems to fuck our plans every now and then?

I feel so wasted right now. I thought it could have been better in time. But, I am wrong. I need to know how to make things better now. I needed more help all along. I am so lost. I am getting so scared. I am all out of brilliant ideas to make our lives better, sweetheart...

Please help me out here. I need to know what there is to be done. So much uncertainties are raping my mind now. I feel so faint to even think about it. I am so weak now. Planning this life journey of ours is so draining. I am falling again, baby ):

Gilded Cunt.

Sometimes, I find myself in deep confusion. Who wouldn't be? Imagine being caught in an endless swirl of lies all day and night. Imagine being burnt alive. Imagine being bled out dry. Imagine being drained out with not a single might. Go ahead, imagine...

I have done whatever that I have to do to make it better. I have gave in. I have changed myself. I have tolerated your fucking nonsense for all these past years. I have put up with your senseless arguments. I have beared with your childish tauntings. I have done too much...

You are way out of the line, you fucking bitch. Like I have said before, if you have a bloody problem, tell it to my bloody face. Why must you be a mouse? Come on, give it to me. I have been waiting all my life to feel this way...

I am so over your crap. I am so done with you. I hate you to the core. You are such a soul-frigger.

Like You.

For the man who I greatly admire...

I love you. I love every single thing about you. I love the way you look at me. I love the way you touch me. I love the way you kiss me. I love the way you hold me tight. I love the way you feel my body. I love the way you miss me. I love the way you care about me. I love the way you bother bout me. I love the way you do things for me. I love the way you make me happy. I love the way you love me...

I had promised myself to tattoo a smile on your face, to sow a seed of happiness in your heart, to kill your enemies and to make you a better person. And I did. I did everything I was meant to do for you, my dear. I did all of it with an intention...

I told myself that if we were ever to go our separate ways, you could never forget me. This girl who had done everything for you. This girl who went the extra mile for you. This girl who had stole the sun and stars of heaven for you. This girl who made you who you are today. This girl who will always love you. This girl who will keep you in her heart no matter where she goes...

I am glad that I am yours, baby. Thank you for letting me love you. I will never let you down. All I need is time. I will give you the life you deserve. I love you, darling...

All The Way Again.

I ponder. It always baffles me how people try to talk sense despite being overtly hypocrites themselves. People like these should be crucified, then maybe they have an idea what they are talking about...

They try to stuff their beliefs down my throat. They try to make me see their point of views about an issue. They try to make me understand that whatever I do is never right. They try to make me fall by lying to me. They try to tell me bout Life by stereotyping it. They try too much...

I am sorry but I do not do this. I do not buy any of them. I will never. And there is nothing they can do about it...

Kiss Of Eden.

There is nothing I have been hiding from you about myself. There is nothing I have not been telling you about how I feel for you. There is nothing I have not been doing to prove to you that I can be the one...

You are my only best friend that I have specially treasured to date. You know my darkest secrets. You know my prerogative. You know my weaknesses. You know my fears. You know my strengths. You know my pain. You know my sorrow. You know my anger. You know my heart best. You know my happiness. You know my mind. You know me...

You took me in. You fixed me. Instead of using glue and chisel, you used Love. Pure Love. You mended my flaws, perfecting me even further. I was under your great care. Soon enough, you saw that I was ready to fly. And you let me. You watched me try to take flight. You advised me. You gave me tips on how to do so. You stood back. You allowed me to try. And I did. I made it. No matter where I went, I had faith that you were always there, all prepared to catch me before I was to fall...

I am your heart and you are my blood. Slice either of us and we would both bleed. You are this close to me, baby. I love you with all my heart. I love you, love you, love you. I am head over heels for you. I am so into you. I can never get enough of you. It seems like I keep coming back for more. Gosh. What have you done to me, darling?! Well, whatever it is, be mine forever. I will keep you safe and sound with every beat of my heart...

Breathe Today.

Love will see us through. Even in Death...

People have intervened in our lives. They have messed us up in ways we could never even imagine. They have tried to kill us with lies and conspiracies. All of our plans have been thrown out of the window. All of our dreams were drowned by the rain. All of our hopes died within the night. All of our origins were lost...

Yet, our will to make our future to be brighter than the stars in Heaven can never be killed. Our faith to be successful people in time to come can never fade away. Our beliefs to be as one can never be erased. Our wishes to be together happily can never be forgotten. Our prayers to survive in this cold world can never be left unanswered...

I love you. No one can separate us. I do not give a fuck to what they may do to me or to you. Through the good and the bad, through thick and thin, I will be by your side till the end of time. I will be yours, baby. They need to start living with the fact that I belong to you till the end of days...

Meanwhile, we shall fight....

The Power Of Love.

You are the hero in my story. You are the victory in my battles. You are my God in my beliefs. You are my truth in my lies. You are my cure of my disease. You are my remedy for this posion my heart has been suffering for years. You are my light in my dark. You are my sun in my rain...

Your face will be the first thing I will see once I close my eyes before I drift to sleep. The only place that is safe to meet you there. A place where we can feel no pain. A place where you can kiss me without fear. A place you can hold me without paranoia. A place you can be near me without tears. A place you can touch me without pain. A place we will dare call Heaven...

Love is when I love you and Life is when you love me. We fell in love once and it is enough to last for a lifetime. My heart will go on for an eternity as you are safely kept in my heart. Even after you and I have perished, our memories will carry on. They will never forget the young lovers that everyone has loathed. The young lovers that everyone could not stand looking at. The young lovers that everyone has despised. The young lovers that everyone has disapproved. The young lovers that made it through it all with no help...

There is nothing I would change about you. I love the way you shine with brilliance in my eyes. The way you stand with diginity as you hold my hand in yours. The way you think maturely for us. The way you have sacrificed to tattoo a smile on my face. The way you bought Happiness for me by the only thing money can never buy; Love...

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you...

Do not worry. I will go all out for you. I will fight. I will defend. I will do all that I can to make sure our love will carry on even after Death. I will be with you till the end of time. I will care for you. I will nurture you. I will be yours forever...

P.S: I WANNA MARRY YOU.

Beautiful Disaster.

It is evident that we have borders at home. The cracks are fine lines between Love and Hate. We are never supposed to cross anyone's path. Otherwise, things could get ugly, just like the way you are...

You blame me for the misery I brought upon you. You curse me for the Hell I have put you through. You hate me for hurting you. You degrade me for the beliefs I held strongly. You disregard me as a human being for my morality. You despise me for the truth I brought upon into your life. You loathe me for my existence...

I would like you to know that the feeling is beyond mutualism. I have hated you before and will continue to do so for the rest of my life. You are nothing but a speck of dirt of my shoulder, itching me day and night. It will just be a matter of time that I will brush you off and blow you away forever...

By the way, if you have a problem with me, tell it to my mother fucking face. If not, all I can say and have been saying is: TAKE YOUR PAIN & SHOVE IT UP YOUR ASSHOLE, BITCHES!!!!