Always Be My Baby.

Anguish has its way of fading away whenever you are near me. The scars on my hand manage to disappear in a blink of an eye whenever you hold my cold shaking hands. I can see my veins once again. Oxygenated blood flows through my veins and I know that this time, I am alive. Sorrow has its way of vanishing into thin air whenever you kiss me. My withered heart becomes well-nourished and it starts to beat again. I guess this explains why I always want you to hold me tight...

I have went the extra mile to cheer you up. I have sacrificed my life just to make you mine. I have lost things and even people that I once had just to have you with me. I have done millions of favors for you, even though at times they are out of my power. I have changed so much for you. I have nurtured you. I have taken great care of you and will always do so till the end of time. I have put in so much hope in us to last for an eternity. I have changed so much for you and I have changed you too...

There is no more turning back. It is now or never. Come what may. We have gone too far to even stop and stare at each other in vain with thousands of contradicting questions in our heads. I love you, baby. I love you with all my heart. I will hold your hand and embrace our future with dignity...

Heart-Shaped Box.

Words can never describe my feelings for you, sweetheart. You are far too beautiful for me to even dream about...

Everytime I think that I am lonely, you come around to cheer me up. Everytime I feel lousy, you will be there for me to let me see that beauty that is hidden within me that I never seen. Everytime I am down, you have a way to carve a smile on my mouth. Everytime I am afraid of what lies ahead, you have the talent of making me feel composed. Everytime I get paranoid of what I have done, you have God's gift to assure me that I am never in the wrong. Everytime I need something, you will make sure I get it in no more than a day's worth of waiting...

I am terribly spoilt by your love. I am so obese by your endless kindness. I know you are just another man trying to make it in this cold world. Well, that is what everyone would say. But, deep down inside, I know you are an angel. You are the diamond in my eyes...

I love everything about you, sweetheart. I love the way you look at me. I love the way you kiss me. I love the way you hug me. I love the way you stare into my eyes. I love the way you pamper me. I love the way you care for me. I love the way you help me. I love the way you remain faithful to me. I love the way you joke with me. I love the way you fight for me...

There is no one else in this world I would rather choose to share this remarkable and splendid feeling with, except with my one and only husband-to-be, Benjamin....

I recite your name like a prayer. Whenever you cannot be there physically for me, I prayed to you. I would think of things you would say to me calm me or what you would want me to do to prevent things to get worst. This is why I keep you in my heart forever. I know you can be there for me 24/7...

I just wanna say thank you for making me your only one. I will show the world how much I love you. I will do my best to give you the life you never had, baby. I love you forever...

Immortality.

It is such an amazing feeling to know that there is an angel out there, thinking of me every night in his life before he goes to sleep to meet me in his dreams where no one can tear us apart...

I love you to death, baby. You are the most precious thing I ever owned. You are the only pride I have in possessing. I am so touched by your sincerity in caring for me. I know I can count on you. I am the luckiest girl alive and I certain as hell the world is uber jealous of me getting the priveledge to be with God's greatest gift...

You bring out the best in me. You see the woman in this girl. And I get to know the woman in me thanks to you, baby. You are the sweetest man I had ever met. You have went the extra mile just to make me smile. Your heart is greater than Life itself, Honey....

I just love you, love you, love you. Yes. I am madly into you. I will never let go of you. We have became immortals of Love...

Burn My Riches.

There is nothing in this world I would not give up for just to be by your side, Honey...

You are the most precious man I have ever met. Your eyes are the world's hidden treasure that only I possess. I love you, my brown eyed baby. They are the most beautiful pair of eyes I have ever laid eyes on. I get so lost in your stare. You got me mesmerized by just a glance. The way your eyelashes move as you blink when you look at me is simply heavenly to look at, my dear. Your nose protrudes out of your handsome face, making you even more outstanding. It appears as if it is mocking me to notice you everytime you stand beside me, baby. Your long ears are so cute, just like the 2 dimples tattooed on your face everytime you smile at me. Your lips are so tender and it tempts me to kiss you everytime you look down upon me, resting your nose upon the arc of my nose...

Did I just describe one of God's angel?

Nobody can do me better than you, baby. Your love for me is larger than Life itself. I am wholesome, thanks to you. You complete me. You are the missing piece of my almost whole heart. I am so glad I got hold of you in time before it was too late. And don't you ever try to run away from me, baby. No matter what happens, I don't care what people say. All I want is you in my life and nobody can stop me from loving you. I will be loving you for a long time, baby...

My Sanity Is Not At The Funeral Pyre.

I hid under my cover creases. Before I knew it, my cheeks got drenched by my tears. I shut my eyes so tight, almost squinting in the utter darkness behind my eyelids. Beautiful memories of what we used to do played in my head. It was as if I was watching a movie on my own...

I miss you more than I did yesterday, baby. My heart is far from numb as it has been disapointed numerous times from not being able to meet yours. My body is aching. It longs to feel yours. No matter the distance, my world will always be a better place because of you, baby...

I just wish you can be my side through thick and thin. Not that you have not been. But, maybe physically. I just wish you can hold me in times I shake with fear. I just wish you can tighten my grip when you see me falling right before your very eyes. I just wish you can take me away from this place. I wanna go somewhere with you where no one knows our names, my precious Love...

Despite having things going so awfully wrong, I still feel blessed. My sanity is not at the funeral pyre thanks to you, sweetheart. You totally kick ass, babe. You rock my world and so do I to yours...

You are everything to me, baby. Nothing can tear our Love apart. Those who have tried, they were simply wasting time. And I am certain in the years to come, they would be feeling ashamed of themselves for attempting to break the great bond between you and I. By then, you and I are on our way to the good life...

The Hope Conspiracy.

I am too gone to be saved as I have been emotionally drained...

My tears have turned into blood. I tried finding space, new skin for me to cut. My hands have been badly scarred. Each line that has been incarcerated has their own story to tell. I have wasted too much blood. I feel weak now...

There is nothing for me to do but grief. There is no way out. There is no hope. There is no joy. Only sorrow...

I feel as if I have started this path with you by my side. You held my hand tight. But, as the night got darker, you were losing grip. The forest whispered your name. You headed towards those whispered voices. You went without me. I got lost. I grew scared. But, I saw light above the density of confusion. It was far but visible enough for me to determine that it was the only way out. I neared it. But, fuck. I was wrong...

I went to the other side of Hell. I was deceived, as always. So, I turned around, searching for you. But I just can't seem to locate you. My worst fears were coming to life now...

I just wanna get better. I need to. I cannot stay like this forever. I need to get out of this nightmare. Can anybody wake me up? I think I am ready to get up...

Black Rose Dying.

Have I made a decision to only allow myself be engulfed in utter misery?

My world with you has caved in. This time for real. I have lost everything. I guess it should be time that I admit my defeat. I do not know where is the safest place anymore. I do not know what Happiness feel like anymore. I do not know who has got my back. I do not know who to trust anymore. I just lost a part of me...

I got no idea how I am suppose to feel. What have I done again? I am so messed up right now. I need a way out of this. The disease has infected my brain. I cannot remove it out of my bloodstream. It has crept through me faster than I thought. I am so sick. I am tired. I have withered...

I got my hopes up all the time only to know they will be crushed one by one right before my very eyes. My heart was held high only to know you were going to break it into a million pieces. I was overprotected in your arms only to know that you were intending to crush my bones...

What would it take for me to realize that I can breathe?

P.S: I AM CONFUSED BY YOU. YOU GOT ME GOOD...

Let The Flames.

I wanna gather each and every one of you in the circle I have made with salt. I will place you within the star so I can achieve my star. I shall pour kerosene all over. Yes. I lie. I am not supposed to do this. And you cannot budge cus you are standing on quick sand. Soon enough, you are sinking. I can see that you are drowning in my pain as you are screaming for Mercy. Nice try. But, not good enough. I light the match and threw it at your face that has been soaked in kerosene...

I cannot trust anyone anymore. Especially the one I once thought could protect me from the demons that exist in my reality. She was everything to me. She was one of the most important people in my life that I really cared about. She was what I thought perfection was all about...Until I got slapped in the face with my eyes closed...

She is just like all the rest. She is no better than the demons in my sleep. She is an animal. She embraces brutality and relishes on hurting me. She is a motherfucker and I truly hate her now...

I realize that I have myself to depend on, besides having the love of my life by my side always. I will show them all what he means to me. I will fight to the end. I will defend. I will prove them all with the scars on me that he is my one and only guardian angel and he is the one that I love with all my heart...

Damn. I love him more than I love them. Much, much more. He is so different than them and that is why I love him. I know I sound ungrateful and what-not. But, I guess that is life. I cannot get the best of both worlds. I have to win some, lose some...

Way Back Into Love.

If only I knew I was going to be this happy, I would have ran into your arms much more sooner...

I cannot find anybody out here to understand what I am talking about. Nobody can feel the way I feel. But, I do not care. What matters most is how you can speak to my heart. No one is like you, baby. They cannot do me better than you. I am willing to throw everything and everyone out of my life so that I can have more space to build new memories with you, honey...

You whisper in my ear so that only I can hear what you have to say to me. We do not need anyone to hold us down. Give me time, darling. I promise I will take you to a place where no one knows our name. And we will build our lives there. We do not need anyone around us as they only hold us down...

Bleeding Love.

My eyes are stinging me. I can barely open them. They hurt so much. I wipe my tears off of my cheek, thinking they were just salty water. Little did I know I have began to shed tears of blood...

My soul is in immense pain. I need to get out of this. I keep bleeding everywhere, inside out. This is bad. Really bad. I got no idea how awful things have gotten. I hate everything around me. I cannot trust anyone here at home. They are all putting on masks and behind those masks are God's most damned creations ever known to mankind...

I am so afraid of my baby leaving me. I love him so much and I would never hold it against him if he were to walk away from me as he got every right to. I have caused to much harm to him. I am just a loser. I have to hurt so many people. Why?

I just hope things get better. This is an illness and I need to get out of this...Fast...