Take Your Pain & Shove it Up Your Asshole.

You are always full of lies. You are always full of dirt. You are always full of hypocrisy. You are always full of stupidity. You are always full of irrationality. You are always full of insanity. You are always full of ignorance. You are always full of pretense. You are always full of nonsense. You are always full of diabolical plans...

Why do you always wanna bring me down? Who the fuck do you think you are? Why must you always stain my life? I have been trying so very hard just to please you and make you happy. But, that seems to be insufficient to you. I do know that I have not done anything so bad to deserve the Hell that you are putting me through...

Fuck it. Why must Home always be referred to as Hell? You make my life so miserable. You really should die, you mother fucker. You never trust me. You never help me. You never like me. You never love me. You never remember the nice things I had done for you. You never notice how good I am...

What the fuck is wrong with you? I wanna shoot you in the back of your neck. I wanna stake you three times in the heart. I wannna pull out all of your fingernails. I wanna cut and slice you alive. I wanna burn you. Then you know what life feels like bleeding on the fucking floor...

Cloud Nine.

I love my baby boi so much...

I can never let go of him. I do not know why. Call me stupid. Call me blind. But no one can ever deny that I truly love the man with all my heart. There is something about him that no one else can see but me. I feel so blessed to have loved him. I always wanna be there for him....

Leaving him is never the way out. It is a whole new level of pain. That is not pleasant at all. I can never erase him from my life. It is clearly impossible. Everything I do, reminds me of him. He appears in my dreams and visits me in my sleep...

I love him. Always. And nothing can tear us apart.

Good Riddance.

Woot Woot!!!

Viv is finally out of my effin' life. 3 cheers for God who actually listens to my silent prayers!!!

Stupid mother fucker. She will not go far in life. So effin' selfish. I am certain as hell she will not go far in life. Whatta loser! She gives me bad vibes. Where is her fucking EQ? God fucking damn her. Please do so!!! Fucking hell...

She left me in the lurch. How cold is that?! Dumb bitch. I hope she suffers the shit I had to go through cus of your negligience!!! Asshole.

But then again, good riddance. I ain't gonna see that whore anymore in my upside-down world. Yessssssss....However, if I ever were to see her down town on the streets, her sorry ass will be mine. I will make sure she will not be able to walk. Again...

People in Projects.

I can't stand it at all when I have my classmates chillaxing in group projects...

I mean when the fuck will they grow up?Get real. Life isn't simplistic. Project works aren't meant to have any giggles and fun. Devotion and effort should be invested. Dumb fucks. How disgusting. I loathe such people.

It is so irritating when I am to team up with dumb shits. God. Life sure sux. Those who are close to me, prolly know who I am referring to right here. Argh!

Burn You Alive.

Mother fucker. Who the fuck she think she is?

Hypocrisy gets in the way of her life. Whore. I fucking hate her so much. Stupid bitch. She just have to cross my path. Why can't she just leave me alone?!!!

What did I do to deserve her? She is not a good person at all. So conniving. Twisted. Evil. Cruel. Harsh. Mean. Awful. Disgusting. Crazy. Unreasonable...Just bout everything that I thought a human being can never be...

I mother fucking hate her. I can't fucking stand her. Oh, how I wish I got a gun right now. Scream. Aim. Fire...

Asphyxiated.

You used to share with me all of your problems. You used to confide in me with your deepest and darkest secrets. I never did once belittle you. You used to follow me wherever I go. You used to do your best to be by your side. I never did once shrug you off whenever we met. You used to care bout me. You used to listen to me. I never did once abuse my control over you...

I always do my part in making our love work. No matter what, I will never leave you. You should have known this by now. But, apparently, I am uncertain why you do not understand that it is you that I truly want. I can never be apart from you. The thought of breathing without you around me hurts so bad.

I don't know why I always wanna be near you. Maybe there is comfort in knowing that I got a man who can always be with me and never leave me. You really have no idea just how much I care bout you. Cus if you do, you wouldn't hurt me all these while, my dear...

End of the Line.

I have a hunch that you are gonna walk away in my life. I am not sure if I should believe in dreams or believe in your words.

However, if you do leave me one day, I hope you know that I truly love you with all my heart. I am astounded that I can love somebody as much as I do for you. I am surprised that I bother bout a man as much as I do bout you. I am amazed that I control my emotions and tolerate you all these times...

There is nothing in this world that I will not do for you. I have given you everything. I feel so hollow. But, I still feel so good. There is warmth in my heart. Hey, what do you know; I still got me deep inside of me.

You are the only best friend I ever had. I shared everything with you. I had lived my life with you like an open book. You see right through me all the time. I have no secrets bout me. You bonded with my heart so well, it is such a shame to known that you are gonna walk away ( sooner or later ).

I will never forget you, my Love. You are the best thing I once had. Our love will always stay in my heart. You will still live in my memories. You will visit me in my sleep. I love you...);

Almost Easy.

The whole world seems to know the depth of my Love for you. They know how much I truly care for you. They are aware of how much I wanna be with you. But do you?

All of your exes were so ruff and horrible. But you stayed on. Still loved them...

However, I know and so do you that I am hell lot better than them. Than any other girl you can find on the street. I got looks, money, education, character and what not. I know I am good enough for any man, especially for you.

You boast to everyone you see bout me being yours. You are so proud on the fact I fit with you in a photograph. But, do you treat me right? I guess not.

You just have to hurt me. On and off. Why, my dear?

I thought you are different. But, I feel that you are just like all the rest. I been begging and giving you chances to change. I trust you so fucking much. I invest hopes and dreams in you. How long more do you intend to do this to me?

I really wanna love you. Please make it easy for me. I don't wanna get mean and bitchy to you. I can be to anyone else. But, I control myself. Cus I love you. If you love me as you say so, then do the same for me. It is contradicting when you say you love and care for me when you give me so much emotional insecuritites...

You know that I don't spend time with anyone except you. You are so heavily involved in every part of my life. I do everything with you. Why must you be indifferent all of a sudden? Why the need for bad transition?

It hurts me so bad to say all these things. When will this end?

I don't wanna leave you. Don't make me do it. I need to go my own way. And so do you. Maybe this time, we should do it alone );

You Give Love A Bad Name.

I don't understand why you gotta be so mean and nasty to me. What's your motive? What the fuck do you intend to get our of this whole thing?

I don't know what the fuck I had done wrong. But I know I have been really nice and sweet to you. I give in to you all the time. And maybe that is the issue. I should be more like your fucking exes and let you suffer what you put me through. So you know what Life's like in my eyes...

You are truly ungrateful. Go on. Say whatever you want to convince me that this is not true. It is time for me to play your game...

Experiments Went Wrong.

Dear God, why must my baby suffer like this?

That hag is torturing him. Us. Haven't he done enough to prove he is a better man now? What more must he do? Is lack of Faith in you that makes you angry at him? I thought you're very forgiving. Please end his sufferings. Please God...

Make the world a better place for him and I. I love him so dearly. It kills me to see him in such condition. It is horrible. Let me take good care of him. I will make him a wholesome person. I promise you, God. I vow I will make him loyal to you than ever before. I promise that vow to you ):

We repent what we have done.

Quality Disguise.

I love you, my dear...

You are so brilliant. Marvellous. Handsome. Strong. Sexy. Hot. Sweet. Nice. Kind. And I know that I will take years to go on and on bout perfect you. God must be showing off to have created you. You are one of his best work of art...

I know that I need to step back just a little bit, to enjoy the beautiful masterpiece God has painted of you. I will always treasure our love. Nobody can feel the way I do for you. Nobody can understand what I mean. Everybody thinks we are cheesy and that we will not last...

Fuck them. This time, I mean it. We will show the world what our Love is made of, and that is of you and I. I wanna show the world just how much you mean to me, Sweetheart.

There is no place I would rather be besides being locked in your sweet embrace. I just cannot seem to get enough of you. Why are you so addictive? I keep coming back for more. Haha, I think I am diabetic after kissing you (:

I have given all of me to you, my love. You have owned every part of my body. I am truly blessed to have you as mine. You are one of a kind, baby. I really love you. Wow. I have never been so in love with any man before. You are not a man. You are an angel...

Deliver Us Away From Evil.

I know Life has been a bitch to the both of us. I am sure that it is gonna be soon that my walls gonna cave in and your world will crash. It is all in the matter of time...

I am sorry that I cannot help you out, my dear. I feel so hurt to see you in such a messed up plight. I really wanna be there for you. But, it always seems so impossible. However, I hope that by just motivating you and sharing our secret world should be more than enough to keep you alive, sweetheart. Just know that I am always by your side, through thick and thin. I will protect you and always wipe your tears. I will be with you to fight your fears...

Just keep holding on. This will not last long. Although time seems to freeze everytime when we go through Agony and misery, this is just to play tricks with us. It will eventually pass. It takes to fade. Your wounds will fade, my love. I will kiss all of your worries away...

Sigh...I am not doing so well myself too over here. How I wish bad things do not exist...

I wanna be in a world where there is no such thing as Agony, Misery, Anger and Hatred. A world where there is only you and I. Nothing can tear our love apart. Wow. That sure sounds heavenly. Oh well, wishful thinkings...

Whatever it is, just be strong for me. I need you to keep it together. This is not the time to trip. Do not give in to those creatures from beyond. I will push you always. I love you, baby.

One day, when the tables turn, they will regret what they have done to us.; what goes around comes around...

Goodbye Seems To Be The Hardest Word.

I want to let you know that you are everywhere around me...

Although we do not spend much time together, it does not bother me anymore like it used to. It is the littlest things that you do or say to me that makes me whole and brand new. I do not know how you do it. But, you just amaze be as you always do.

You stand before my eyes. Shining in brilliance. I know I love you right from the very beginning when we met.

You are the sunshine in my life. You are my youthful summers. You are my joyful springs. You are the warmth that eases the bitter cold of my winters. You plant the leaves back in my garden in my autumns.

You always help me. No matter what. It is proven that my world revolves around you. I am astounded by the fact that I have so much Love within me, waiting to pour down on you, the way the rain did to eradicate all of my Agony. It is all just for you. You are so wonderful. You are just so impeccable.

I trust my whole lifetime in your hands. I know you can take good care of my heart. You are the sweetest man I had ever met in my life. You care so much for me, and always bothered bout my well-being. I miss you so much right now. But that is okay.

Cus, my missing for you is only temporary. It will end since we are gonna be inseparable as we had pinky promised.

I love you, my dear...

Sweet Sacrifice.

People like you, should be crucified.

You are good for nothing. You make my life so mother fucking bitter. Why must you be so evil? Twisted old hag. You shall die in my wrath. You shall burn in hell. I love to see you rot there. Then you know what life is like in my shoes. Whore. You dirty stupid bitch. There will come a day where my Happiness gets its revenge. Watch me...

I just can't say no to him. I love him so much. I really do. I want him to go down on his knees and marry me today. Damn. I guess I am just wishing my life away. But, for a greater good. I wanna grow old with him. I wanna spend the rest of my life with him. I wanna die in his arms. I wanna die together with him. In front of the sunset. In front of the waves by the beach. Surrounded by seashells...

Only For You

I love you, love you, love you.

You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. Loving you is a blessing. You're the greatest and priceless gift God has ever given me. I feel so complete with you. There is nothing more I'd ask for. I can breathe easy with you around me. I can fly high even with your soul in me.

Measure of a Man.

You still refuse to change. When will you start practising what you preach? Why can't you be good to me?

I find you to be so ignorant to what you have right before you. Have you thought bout life when I'm gone? Have you thought bout life when I won't help you anymore? When I won't care? When I won't love?

You seem so sure that you can't lose me. And one day, it shall be my turn to be sure that I can be gone with just a blink. So please, don't be bad. You're making me hate you. And that's the last thing you'd want me to do to you, my dear ):

Everything That I Will Not Be.

I won't wish you well. You know what you have done to me over the past few years. You kept it a secret to us. Only you and I know bout the shit you had put me thru. Yet, you always live in denial. And I don't know what is your deal.

What do you want from me?

I fucking hate you and your son. I hate both of you. The hatred is so immense, till I can't even recall when it began planting itself into my soul. You are far beyond my comprehension and compassion.

Both of you deserve to die. Faster...

Trapped Within Himself.

I love you with all my heart.

However, something doesn't feel right. I can't tell you, cus my words are cold. I don't want them to hurt you, my dear. I care alot for you. I am empty without having your breath into my mouth. I feel so alone. Lost. Abandoned...

I miss the old you. I love you the way you were. You were so perfect. Flawless. Angelic. I feel so proud to own you and be called yours. Yet, now everything seems to be falling apart. My heart has been broken and hurt far too many times. Thinking bout flying high is silly. Why do I feel burdened though we are together?

Why are you still living in denial? Why can't you open up your eyes and realize how nice I am to you? I feel under-appreciated. I feel deprived of gratitude from you. I am hurt every day. Can you stop it? Please. I can't take it anymore.

My whole body has been twisted and convulsed by Agony. It is hellish here at home. I don't need you to be this way. I thought you could be different. I have tried my best to overlook all of your minor flaws. But, you seem to be taking advantage of the situation. Why my sweetheart? Why are you hurting me so much, day and night?

I am dehydrated. I lost appetite to eat. I can't sleep. I can't think straight. If I were to cry anymore, my eyes will bleed. Please change... Please )':

Can you tell the man I used to love months back that I miss him so much?

Hopes Lie.

Everyone leads me on. Nothing new is going on here. I thought he could make me feel special but I guess I was wrong. Again. And again, nothing new is going on here. Somehow, I feel so predictable...

Life seems so quiet. The sun has faded to grey. Colors have disintegrated further to utter darkness. I am engulfed by Sorrow. Agony has its way to make Misery last longer than expected. Hopes crushed. Dreams broken.

His face is in the distant. Everytime I try to near, he tends to fear. I pictured us and how we were months back. It felt so right. But somehow, not anymore.

Is it just me? Or am I starting to break free?

Mirrored.

Things are never what they promised to be. People add onto my agony. Like I need the pain. Why must the ones I always hold onto tightly hurt me indirectly?

Emotional pain is always the worst kind of torture any human can wish for. It is twisted and demented. Just like the people I know. Why must things always have to be this way? Why can't I have anything nice to say?

I really have enough of cutting myself. Bleeding it out doesn't help a single bit. So, what should I do? Having him is the same as I don't. He doesn't stand out like he used to. He wanna hide from me. Where are the people who have promised me that they got my back?

I turned around but, all I can see are shadows. Moving shadows. Away and away and away...and slowly, they disappear...